I read something today that implied (only implied, saying that something else was manageable…) that this 365 Project of mine was unmanageable. For the first time since starting I felt defeated. I know the comment wasn’t meant at all to offend me personally, but I took it personally and became discouraged. I don’t want to think in terms of manageable and unmanageable. This is part of my work, part of my study. Isn’t it? Is bathing and grooming yourself every day unmanageable? Is parenting unmanageable? Loving someone unmanageable? Are these examples unmanageable? (For some, yes.) I’m just foaming now… Anyway, I started four different projects but all of them failed miserably. (Yes, I used the word failed just then… okay, not failed, just not going anywhere…ugh.)
So, Discouragement: Kiss this.
Fifteen Pieces of Flare: I am dedicating this song to Rachel Lord of Ugly Purple Sweater and Jocelyn Mackenzie of Pearl and the Beard. And, yes, I love the movie Office Space. I love the idea of “Pieces of Flare” actually being required. So funny. It’s almost a shame how long this song took me. Since I’m leaving for a show tomorrow night in Biddeford, Maine, I had today to work and work, so I had time with which to write and record this one. I have no excuse nor explanation for the theme of this song: it just came out like that.
I’m putting this song out there, and think that it came about being because I let myself just play and go along with what my cello said to me back without feeling stupid about it. I’ve also done some pretty sad songs lately and felt it was time for a pick-me-up. Someone said after hearing it, “Well, that came out of left field…” Sure, but you can’t always write serious songs when you’re not always a serious person, right? (Joc?)
Another point: this is done with voice and a single bowed cello, something I really dislike (See Day 3 Gloria). I really believed it was against my better judgment to do it this way, but with all the other stuff on top, I don’t mind it at all.
The vocals were something else totally. Really? Make this voice public? Hell, yes!
RHYMING!!! Ahhh! I HATE RHYMING! So I just decided to do it ridiculously. I only hate it because it doesn’t come naturally to me, and it’s really hard. Want an example of incredible rhyming talent? Please visit the myspace of Jocelyn Mackenzie and Jim Alteri: Poo Poo Jim & Pee Pee Girl. Jocelyn is in Pearl and the Beard with me and Jim is the uber talented wonderfully gifted musician/social genius who is in love with Jocelyn (Joc: is that okay to put into print?) Joc has this unbelievable gift for lyrics and rhyme: she can do it constantly and on the spot, being totally right on every time. It’s amazing. Come to a Pearl and the Beard show and you’ll witness it first hand!
Basically everything was overdubbed. Every. Thing. It. Took. For. Ever. The thing I’m finding the hardest about this is my desire to make good recordings, not just always a demo per se. By good, I mean, at the very least feigning hard work and make it something I want to listen to and play over and over, therefore hoping you feel the same way. So I figure if I can work as hard as I can with what I know, it will at least be worth it to me when I’m 75, should I live that long, and if you like it, too: Awesome.
At the end of it, my dog, Lacey came and put her nose at the end of the bed and sighed into the mic, as if to say: “Will you please be done already?!”
Yes, Lacey. I will be done.
See you tomorrow,
I went to heaven but you weren’t there Guys from Hell said that your presence was rare Your mom was wearing 15 pieces of flare If your mom was there and you weren’t I don’t know where you’re going.
I went by our favorite restaurant You won’t believe me, at that very moment Struck down I was, a violent ailment You’ll be sorry if this is the last time you’ll ever see me Oh, darling, oh, sugar It’s a constant battle of, a constant battle of Oh baby, oh honey It’s a constant battle of me and you. I couldn’t help it so I went to your house Record was playing, I believe it was Strauss Walked right in, you were there like a louse Whitey-tighties and what?! You got on my blouse? Oh, darling, oh, sugar It’s a constant battle of, a constant battle of Oh, baby, Oh honey It’s a constant battle of, a constant battle of Oh, peachy, gosh it’s funny It’s a constant battle of me and you. You coulda told me, you could’ve announced it Always something missing from the back of my closet It’s totally fine, and it always will be, Just wish you would have told me! Didn’t know your taste was eclectic See I was worried, mornings always so hectic Wardrobe missing made me apoplectic Getting ready was anticlimactic Oh, darling, oh, sugar It’s a constant battle of, a constant battle of Oh, baby, Oh honey It’s a constant battle of, a constant battle of Oh, peachy, gosh it’s funny It’s a constant battle of me and you.